Manifesting Joy

In this post-industrial information society we are ingrained from a young age to value metrics. Such metrics may reflect how punctual you are or how quickly you can pluck the feathers from a chicken. But the most important metric reflects how well you are tracking...

Solve et Coagula [LSD + Ketamine]

Drug: LSD (liquid) + Ketamine Dosage: 5x hits LSD + 100mg Ketamine Procedure: Ketamine ingested immediately after I began peaking on LSD Duration: 8 hours of LSD, 1 hour of LSD+K My mind wandered to the place it usually does: pondering the nature of existence. I...

The Royal Shields [DMT]

Substance: DMT Dosage: Unknown. Multiple failed attempts made measuring impossible. RoA: Smoked Duration: 17 minutes Date: The spring of 2012 Environment: Laying in my bed. My wife is monitoring my condition. To Do: Convert from outline to prose form. Notes: This is...

The Night I Died [Ketamine]

Drug: Ketamine (s-isomer) Dosage: 100mg RoA: Insufflation Duration: 20 minutes Date: Spring 2013 Environment: Laying in bed, alone. It took less than 5 minutes for the K-hole paralysis to set in… I experienced what I fully believed was my death and crossed over to the...

Determining One’s Will (Flowchart)

Commentary: Achieving K&C is the only appropriate Will to have until that operation is complete. All else is prerequisite work toward that single-minded goal. “What my ego wants to achieve” should probably read “what my ego + HGA agree to...

The Theosophical Model of Astral Worlds

[Note: The following are my notes from a work-in-progress research into the model of astral worlds employed by certain members of the Theosophical Society. In my research, these magicians – Charles Leadbeater, William Walker Atkinson, Annie Besant, Alice Bailey,...

The Life of Severin Aequus

[End of events: 2003; Last Full Revision: 2020] Before diving into the details of my life, I would like to take a moment to put a framework on the composition at hand. The purpose of this essay is not only to lend credibility to my later proposals, but also to expose...

Visiting Grandma

This experience occurred after I had moved to Dallas at the age of twenty-two. My personal development had advanced greatly and I decided to practice astral projection using the techniques described by Denning and Phillips. I had been practicing daily for about two...

The Dog-Faced Demon

I was about 15 years old when this occurred. I had very little idea what had really happened and how significant it was until much later. I ‘awoke’ from a dream to find myself standing in the hallway of the two-bedroom apartment that I lived in with my...